She waits for a text from you everyday. Yes she said she won't expect anything, but she does. She also said she won't fall in love, but she did. She couldn't help it. It wasn't in her control. She fell so hard that it still hurts. It hurts because she didn't expect herself to fall so hard. It hurts where she never thought it could. She never wanted this to happen. She had sworn off of this thing called love. And she betrayed herself by letting you in.
She did try to stop herself from getting into it but then she didn't realise, the distance she'd already travelled. It was difficult to go back even after knowing that there's nowhere to go further. But then there was no way to go back as well, there was something which pulled her further in. And she kept flowing into it because she couldn't stop. What was it that you did to her, that all her defences melted? She had been strong for too long, but you changed it.
She had been living a life wherein she wasn't herself most of the time, she did things which would be acceptable by people around her. But with you she was so herself that she often wondered is that really her..! She didn't need to pretend anything while she was with you. She could just be herself and do and say anything she wants. This freed her,liberated her. But this also tied her up with you. It was only you who could make her feel so alive about herself, Make her forget about whatever had happened in her earlier life.
Even you found solace with her, and she loved to be able to bring the calm in your otherwise chaotic life. You went up to her whenever you needed to run away from things which bothered you. And she'd be there, always. She had promised you she'd be there for you. I think while promising that she forgot to ask you in return the same thing, to be there whenever she needed you.
Because now you are not there. She knew you won't be there but a big part of her heart still waits. She's always available for you and you always prefer your plans over her. She keeps losing herself everytime you don't answer her call, everytime you chose someone else over her.
Still believes that whatever you two had wasn't just a fluke, wasn't just her imagination. You did assure her time and again, that it wasn't, that it was all true, that you felt the same way about her. But you know what, She's hurting every day. She remembers so many little things about you that it pains her heart to even think about it. She remembers the first message you sent her on that office chat. She remembers the lyrics that you used to send her randomly. Rewinding and listening to the special lyrics everytime has become a habit for her now.
What should she do? Should she lock you and your memories in a box and hide it somewhere? Will it stop hurting then? Do you have answers to any of the questions? I know you don't. Because you don't even think about her the way she does. She was just a convenient phone call for you whenever you felt sad,alone or frustrated. And now because she is always available for you,she has become someone from whom you wanna run away.
Just answer one question for her:
Why did you make her fall when you knew you won't be there to catch her?
T@nu
She did try to stop herself from getting into it but then she didn't realise, the distance she'd already travelled. It was difficult to go back even after knowing that there's nowhere to go further. But then there was no way to go back as well, there was something which pulled her further in. And she kept flowing into it because she couldn't stop. What was it that you did to her, that all her defences melted? She had been strong for too long, but you changed it.
She had been living a life wherein she wasn't herself most of the time, she did things which would be acceptable by people around her. But with you she was so herself that she often wondered is that really her..! She didn't need to pretend anything while she was with you. She could just be herself and do and say anything she wants. This freed her,liberated her. But this also tied her up with you. It was only you who could make her feel so alive about herself, Make her forget about whatever had happened in her earlier life.
Even you found solace with her, and she loved to be able to bring the calm in your otherwise chaotic life. You went up to her whenever you needed to run away from things which bothered you. And she'd be there, always. She had promised you she'd be there for you. I think while promising that she forgot to ask you in return the same thing, to be there whenever she needed you.
Because now you are not there. She knew you won't be there but a big part of her heart still waits. She's always available for you and you always prefer your plans over her. She keeps losing herself everytime you don't answer her call, everytime you chose someone else over her.
Still believes that whatever you two had wasn't just a fluke, wasn't just her imagination. You did assure her time and again, that it wasn't, that it was all true, that you felt the same way about her. But you know what, She's hurting every day. She remembers so many little things about you that it pains her heart to even think about it. She remembers the first message you sent her on that office chat. She remembers the lyrics that you used to send her randomly. Rewinding and listening to the special lyrics everytime has become a habit for her now.
What should she do? Should she lock you and your memories in a box and hide it somewhere? Will it stop hurting then? Do you have answers to any of the questions? I know you don't. Because you don't even think about her the way she does. She was just a convenient phone call for you whenever you felt sad,alone or frustrated. And now because she is always available for you,she has become someone from whom you wanna run away.
Just answer one question for her:
Why did you make her fall when you knew you won't be there to catch her?
T@nu
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